It’s done. My book is out, and I feel proud, relieved, and fearful. It is like the naked dream, because while my book was sitting on my computer, I was safe. Now my words are exposed and that is a scary feeling.
Will anyone who knows me and reads it enjoy the story, or will they cringe but be afraid to tell me? I have a new appreciation for anyone who puts themselves out there, whether they write a book or act in a movie, play, or television show for the first time. It is a very vulnerable position, but I have no regrets. It’s a unique story.
When I began this project seven years ago, it was never my intent to turn it into a book like this. I thought I was going to write a short story for my children so they could learn about their grandfather. I never imagined I would discover enough to write a book!
I did not realize how much history I would learn by digging into my father’s past. I decided to write it from his point of view, with letters from me intertwined throughout the story explaining the roundabout journey I walked trying to piece together his life. I wanted to make it interesting enough for my grandchildren to want to read it during my lifetime, which is why I chose this format.
After spending all this time researching and writing and rewriting, the actual moment it went live on Amazon was quite anticlimactic. There were no bells or no confetti. I got into bed and then asked my husband, “Did I just publish it?” Sure enough, when I went back to my computer, it was there. The action of approving the proof set it in motion.
So it is there on Kindle now and in paperback tomorrow I believe. In a month or so, it will be available online at other booksellers such as Barnes and Noble and Books a Million.